By the way you're using them right now
I know you do
I've grown tired of your feigned attempts of questioning the validity of my devotion
To my life, my Lord and ones that truly love me
Show yourselves
So I won't have to hurt the people you possess
You say they allowed themselves to be use
I say lack of experience & knowledge
I'm
Dancing and laughing with them
I feel bad cause now I'm laughing at them
Let me stop
Wait what's that you threw at me this time
Positivity? A compliment? Acknowledgement?
Purposely or accidentally
Looking past this vessel that one day my soul will out do?
Oh but now you see I do that on the daily
Now you see
Til the sound around blinds you once more
I placed traps, wires and presidential tint in a instant
Never do that again if you're excepting something in return
you talk about change
but i don’t think you really get it
ask someone that everything about themselves
change
each day they wake up
except the routine they try to align themselves with
I use to let
outburst of chems spill all over my brain from all ends of the world, ones never meant for me
Love?; Self-loathing. Mercy & Forgiveness?; Despair. Grace?; Hopelessness.
how long will it last
just the car ride to work?
will the hours speed on by?
or will be stopped and examined
minute by minute
how long will it last
the hours to break the routine have fallen upon you
Now how will you use them today
Having to be so merciful/ruthless to your children
nobody can fathom it
the power bestowed …. no
given? you granted yourself?
who would take up such a position as you
not even the people that wish to be like you
can wrap around the idea of being
having to be perfect all the time
pressure from all corners of your creation
who knows
problem being an empath
you can feel their thoughts
their facial expressions
certain eyes have a gaze that feels like
i shouldn’t have never seen that
others are begging for more
i don’t know which i despise more
chipping down their walls
if any
my mind does the heavy lifting
overdrive if they blurt something out
tones, cracks in their voice, stuttering
not holding on to compliments
they can easily turn into knives afterwards
letting them steep their way as far as
I let them in
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